Well i’m back in GA after spending some much needed time with my family up in MA. After two feet of snow and temperatures of 20 degrees with wind chill factors in single digits, i was ready for the rainy, humid, 50 degree weather i came back to.
But i have to admit i came back with some thoughts and feelings of “is this where i’m supposed to be?” I know this sounds crazy, after being here for 4months, but as i was home i finaly was able to take myself away from the chaos. From the busyness that had just taken over. I realized that God is a God of order and simplicity. And my life here feels so far from it. I go 7 days a week, but by my own choice most of the time, hoping that i can do all that i need and want to do. I realized i was burning out fast. My attitude was changing, my view was changing and i was seeing myself become someone i didn’t like.
I realize now that being here is where i need to be for this moment in life, it could change a couple months from now. But as much as i felt the uncertainty of coming back, God met me with the challenge to change, and stay. I realized i have to be able to find balance, and rest. If i’m going non stop how am i supposed to feel like i’m resting in God, really spending time with Him. And if i’m not spending this rest time in Him, then how can i be pouring out in Ministry’s as well as in work and to my roommates.
